Thursday, October 21, 2010
Invisible Truth
the reason i came up with the name 'Invisible Truth' for my blog is because i wanted to express emotions, facts, truths that cannot be seen from the surface and i don't think I've been using this blog to it's fullest potential. theres been certain topic that i wanted to express here but i just couldn't make myself do it, i would say i don't have the guts to do it yet. i thought of making this blog a place to 'express' but when i think of it, people can just access this blog in a snap of a finger. and I'm afraid certain people would see it, and just not accept it? I've been struggling to tell my parents the truth recently actually, i think I'm old enough to do it. but every time, when i think of what happens if i do, the consequences to my actions. i reconsider my 'plan'. well, the truth? i don't freaking care if my friends don't accept the fact or what ever, i came across this line 'those that matter don't mind, those that mind don't matter' and i really feel it. cause seriously, if they really are your true friends, they would accept you for who you are. and those that doesn't, well, they're not worthy of being your friend then. *insert story about past personal experience here* but family is different, you cant just ditch them, you have to spend your whole life with them! and they are the ones that i feel i'm letting down the most, i feel like everyone have hopes in me. and that hope is gonna shatter like glass if they found out the truth. i'm actually really tired of hiding who i am, i wanna just step out into the real world. the world i belong in, the world that i can just be myself, no more hiding. and i know whats the first thing i'm gonna do after i've expose the truth! i think i'm so gonna post it on facebook! i know everyone hope to have this platform to fall back on, when theres a wall infront of you, you hope to have your friends and family to help you climb across it. but now, that wall is my family. i'm like stuck here hanging, not passing on, not falling back. i admit that i need help, someone with i dunno, experience to be here. but seriously, i wouldnt find any. okay, right, too dramatic, i know i know, coming back.. i think if my told my parents, knowing how much they love me, they would eventually accept the fact, if i'm not wrong. but i dont live with my parents, it's a whole other story regarding my family. this is so freaking hard! and i'm seriously tired of hiding! like seriously.. i wanna climb across that wall! and find the real casey, the real me.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Trainers Course
okay here goes.. so saturday and sunday had trainers course at prescott hotel. so on friday night, teri and i were busy packing our stuff. it's like so uncertain about what baju's to bring and stuff to bring, but we made it through anyways with enough clothing and equipments. okay the equipments part, not so la.. we forgot certain stuff! but got help from other people. so like still end up okay! oh, i slept like 1.30am on friday night.
so on saturday, we woke up early, i woke up around 5.45am ish, more or less la.. suppose to wake up at 5.30am, but i kept snoozing my alarm. then waited for hoe yinn to come pick up, kata datang 6.45am but came at 7am la kot, i could have slept another 15 mins there. anyway, we reach prescott hotel quite early, we're like the first to reach and we sat there waiting for the others. hoe yinn and kenneth left us there later on, then we just sat there waiting at the lobby. we followed people up to the patheticly small room, continue to wait for other people to arrive. then we took our attendence, i was the 2nd person to sign our attendence, and teri was 3rd. after awhile, everyone came, class started, the beginning wasnt that bad, i could still keep myself up and running, but when we reach the next topic i started falling asleep.. like seriously! i was covering my eyes with my hands while trying to take a nap. oh, then we had to present the topic in front of everyone, it was my 1st time, so i was nervous, and i talked like a train, like really fast, and i forgot one section too. oh! and we got issued our topic following the attendence! i got the 2nd topic, which is CPR and teri got the 3rd, Choking. we were thinking 'lucky' us! why did we sign our attendence so soon! but eventually, we were happy we did! okay so, our class ended at about 10+ pm kot. then i went to mandi and all! then we i habis and went back to the class room, i saw kenneth, man kit, haris and sasa! glad to see them! then teri and i continue doing our lesson plan. then after awhile, this guy came and wanted to lock the room, so we had to move, kesian us! teri and i moved to the lobby, we sat on the floor and continue to do our work, we were glad to have kenneth, man kit, haris and sasa there to teman us! emotional support! it meant quite a lot to us kot. and i was sad to see them leave~ but oh well, had to finish our work.. we sat at the lobby for so long, until madam eng and sir fan they all came back around 3am, then sir fan joined us at the lobby, then later on we had some 'visitors' to come talk to us, haha! they all siap like their lesson plans and transparencies dah! and teri and i still got lot. but we appreciate the company, it was quite fun actually! we had fun doing the transparencies! then at 5am. 5am wei! we went to sleep. sir fan took the key card, so suppose to call him to open the door, but the door cacat a bit, it was closed buy wasnt locked, so i got in the room. when i got in, 1 sleeping on the bed like so freaking comfy! the other slept at the centre of the bed with 2 pillows, and sir fan slept on the floor between the beds with 1 pillow. (note : there were 2 double beds, and 4 pillows) so that leaves me with no pillow, no blanket, no bed! okay, actually got la, i could have climb in and sleep with the guy with 1 pillow, but damn awkward la! so i end up on the floor, sleeping on my sling bag, with no blanket and jacket, and air con running at full blast! i was shivering when i woke up. i seriously regret not climbing in bed with that guy, at least got blanket! *insert teri's look here*
sunday morning, so yea.. woke up at 7am, shivering. teri called me to tell me she woke up and all later, then i was wondering if i should wake my roomies up. i decided to give them 10 more mins, while i iron my shirt. then went to pass up my lesson plan at 8am, after that went to makan breakfast, which isnt so appetizing, the previous night's dinner was better. then right after we got back from breakfast, thats when we start with our lessons, i miss out some stuff, but overall i think i did quite okay, i wasnt as nervous. then after that, it was teri's turn, she did good! and then, we sat there listening to other people's lessons. there was a lot of funny jokes. we had to check out from the hotel before 2pm. so we went to pack our stuff and all during lunch. oh, i forgot to mention theres this guy, my roomie la, he left earlier, i didnt get the chance to say goodbye~ :( oh well, i'll see him again on 31st oct! anyways, more or less after that we had lunch, we sat with these 2 girls, we like talked a bit la, berkenalan! then after luch we continue to listen to other peoples lessons, kenneth and man kit came to pick us up. they came early la, had to wait for us to habis, sorry about that! then after the lessons ended, we gathered together, and had like a short summary of everything, then got our results back, and that it la kot. balik time! teri and i went to lobby to cari kenneth and man kit, then we had a little chat with the officers, and a bit of comments from sir subra. :) then there we go, back home! sampai rumah, had an awesome hot shower, and off to bed! woke up at 10.30pm, and here i am blogging about the past 2 days.
overall, i had lots of fun la, learned a lot of stuff, really touch when they came visit us at night and teman us. met a lot of new people that i tak pernah talk to. it was a great experience. :)
so on saturday, we woke up early, i woke up around 5.45am ish, more or less la.. suppose to wake up at 5.30am, but i kept snoozing my alarm. then waited for hoe yinn to come pick up, kata datang 6.45am but came at 7am la kot, i could have slept another 15 mins there. anyway, we reach prescott hotel quite early, we're like the first to reach and we sat there waiting for the others. hoe yinn and kenneth left us there later on, then we just sat there waiting at the lobby. we followed people up to the patheticly small room, continue to wait for other people to arrive. then we took our attendence, i was the 2nd person to sign our attendence, and teri was 3rd. after awhile, everyone came, class started, the beginning wasnt that bad, i could still keep myself up and running, but when we reach the next topic i started falling asleep.. like seriously! i was covering my eyes with my hands while trying to take a nap. oh, then we had to present the topic in front of everyone, it was my 1st time, so i was nervous, and i talked like a train, like really fast, and i forgot one section too. oh! and we got issued our topic following the attendence! i got the 2nd topic, which is CPR and teri got the 3rd, Choking. we were thinking 'lucky' us! why did we sign our attendence so soon! but eventually, we were happy we did! okay so, our class ended at about 10+ pm kot. then i went to mandi and all! then we i habis and went back to the class room, i saw kenneth, man kit, haris and sasa! glad to see them! then teri and i continue doing our lesson plan. then after awhile, this guy came and wanted to lock the room, so we had to move, kesian us! teri and i moved to the lobby, we sat on the floor and continue to do our work, we were glad to have kenneth, man kit, haris and sasa there to teman us! emotional support! it meant quite a lot to us kot. and i was sad to see them leave~ but oh well, had to finish our work.. we sat at the lobby for so long, until madam eng and sir fan they all came back around 3am, then sir fan joined us at the lobby, then later on we had some 'visitors' to come talk to us, haha! they all siap like their lesson plans and transparencies dah! and teri and i still got lot. but we appreciate the company, it was quite fun actually! we had fun doing the transparencies! then at 5am. 5am wei! we went to sleep. sir fan took the key card, so suppose to call him to open the door, but the door cacat a bit, it was closed buy wasnt locked, so i got in the room. when i got in, 1 sleeping on the bed like so freaking comfy! the other slept at the centre of the bed with 2 pillows, and sir fan slept on the floor between the beds with 1 pillow. (note : there were 2 double beds, and 4 pillows) so that leaves me with no pillow, no blanket, no bed! okay, actually got la, i could have climb in and sleep with the guy with 1 pillow, but damn awkward la! so i end up on the floor, sleeping on my sling bag, with no blanket and jacket, and air con running at full blast! i was shivering when i woke up. i seriously regret not climbing in bed with that guy, at least got blanket! *insert teri's look here*
sunday morning, so yea.. woke up at 7am, shivering. teri called me to tell me she woke up and all later, then i was wondering if i should wake my roomies up. i decided to give them 10 more mins, while i iron my shirt. then went to pass up my lesson plan at 8am, after that went to makan breakfast, which isnt so appetizing, the previous night's dinner was better. then right after we got back from breakfast, thats when we start with our lessons, i miss out some stuff, but overall i think i did quite okay, i wasnt as nervous. then after that, it was teri's turn, she did good! and then, we sat there listening to other people's lessons. there was a lot of funny jokes. we had to check out from the hotel before 2pm. so we went to pack our stuff and all during lunch. oh, i forgot to mention theres this guy, my roomie la, he left earlier, i didnt get the chance to say goodbye~ :( oh well, i'll see him again on 31st oct! anyways, more or less after that we had lunch, we sat with these 2 girls, we like talked a bit la, berkenalan! then after luch we continue to listen to other peoples lessons, kenneth and man kit came to pick us up. they came early la, had to wait for us to habis, sorry about that! then after the lessons ended, we gathered together, and had like a short summary of everything, then got our results back, and that it la kot. balik time! teri and i went to lobby to cari kenneth and man kit, then we had a little chat with the officers, and a bit of comments from sir subra. :) then there we go, back home! sampai rumah, had an awesome hot shower, and off to bed! woke up at 10.30pm, and here i am blogging about the past 2 days.
overall, i had lots of fun la, learned a lot of stuff, really touch when they came visit us at night and teman us. met a lot of new people that i tak pernah talk to. it was a great experience. :)
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I'm Getting Closer, Closer to Closure
this weekend in general was quite free, i mean.. I DONT NEED TO STUDY FOR EXAM! and and, NO ASSIGNMENTS! wooh! freedom! BUT~ it's quite boring as well.
i'll start from yesterday, so i slept through my whole saturday morning! haven done that in awhile, i woke up at 12 noon, and saw man kit's msg that says he's gonna come pick me up at 12.15~ i was like OMG!! i'm so not gonna make it in time~ so i drove myself instead. HAHA! then went to sri permata did some st. john work, after that decide to go for lunch at tropicana city mall. lunch was "interesting" HAHA! like seriously "interesting". i know teri will give the face when she sees this. then after that we went home, cause sasa have a wedding to attend. then reach home, online. thats it for saturday.
sunday, woke up almost noon, but not yet. HAH! earlier~ so what did i do the whole day? hmm.. online, movie, tv series, manga, youtube, music. the cycle repeats itself. and then here i am blogging.
okay, lets jump backwards to more general things in my life. lately, i macam see my cousin quite often, and he pun selalu talk to me and kacau i kot, but i dont mind. we haven exactly been talking a lot in the past. and he's gonna go overseas to study soon, i think i'll miss him. emphasize on the phrase 'i think'. hmm.. what else? oh, i wish time would pass SLOWER! i dont want 16th and 17th October to come so soon. and tomorrow is monday, got computer class, but i guess computer class is better than extra class. extra class is like hell on earth sikit.
okay, i think thats it for tonight. will blog another soon.
i'll start from yesterday, so i slept through my whole saturday morning! haven done that in awhile, i woke up at 12 noon, and saw man kit's msg that says he's gonna come pick me up at 12.15~ i was like OMG!! i'm so not gonna make it in time~ so i drove myself instead. HAHA! then went to sri permata did some st. john work, after that decide to go for lunch at tropicana city mall. lunch was "interesting" HAHA! like seriously "interesting". i know teri will give the face when she sees this. then after that we went home, cause sasa have a wedding to attend. then reach home, online. thats it for saturday.
sunday, woke up almost noon, but not yet. HAH! earlier~ so what did i do the whole day? hmm.. online, movie, tv series, manga, youtube, music. the cycle repeats itself. and then here i am blogging.
okay, lets jump backwards to more general things in my life. lately, i macam see my cousin quite often, and he pun selalu talk to me and kacau i kot, but i dont mind. we haven exactly been talking a lot in the past. and he's gonna go overseas to study soon, i think i'll miss him. emphasize on the phrase 'i think'. hmm.. what else? oh, i wish time would pass SLOWER! i dont want 16th and 17th October to come so soon. and tomorrow is monday, got computer class, but i guess computer class is better than extra class. extra class is like hell on earth sikit.
okay, i think thats it for tonight. will blog another soon.
Friday, October 1, 2010
This Friday Night
okay so, tonight is friday night. and unfortunately, i'm at home blogging.. what happen to friday night fever? oh well.. depressing
lets have a recap of my week, monday tuesday exam, wednesday, what did i do on wednesday again? er.. i think i went out on wednesday night. then thursday got class the whole day. and here i am, friday, yea.. nothing much worth being exciting about. i feel so sleepy now.. and i miss gloria and rosalinda! rosalinda been missing for a while, gloria hmm.. gloria pun busy kot.
i dunno what to blog about dah.. out of ideas..
hmmm.. how about, I DYED MY HAIR! :P i feel so rebellious nowadays. but whatever, i'm 18!!
okay, actually i've been thinking about going out today, but like totally tak jadi la. i guess i'll just drown myself with boredom for the weekend. oh, did i mention i got no assignments this weekend! :P
lets have a recap of my week, monday tuesday exam, wednesday, what did i do on wednesday again? er.. i think i went out on wednesday night. then thursday got class the whole day. and here i am, friday, yea.. nothing much worth being exciting about. i feel so sleepy now.. and i miss gloria and rosalinda! rosalinda been missing for a while, gloria hmm.. gloria pun busy kot.
i dunno what to blog about dah.. out of ideas..
hmmm.. how about, I DYED MY HAIR! :P i feel so rebellious nowadays. but whatever, i'm 18!!
okay, actually i've been thinking about going out today, but like totally tak jadi la. i guess i'll just drown myself with boredom for the weekend. oh, did i mention i got no assignments this weekend! :P
Saturday, September 25, 2010
A Saturday Morning
okay, so today was HAS at sri permata. you know, the usuals la, woke up later than expected, not enough sleep, didn't eat breakfast, not enough time to prepare, man kit came to pick me up on time etc.. :P anyways, i think everything went quite well today but theres sure to be some glitches here and there la, but no harm done (i guess?). haha!
then this year, we had HAS in the hall, so we get to sit down and actually listen to the speeches. surprisingly, i think we heard a quite well spoken speech today.. :P give us more semangat! then gave out awards, incentives, and letters kot. so wink wink on the incentive! dah plan what to spend the money on already, but seriously like use st. john money to buy stuff to wear to st. john? like it's a cycle, but i guess better than nothing la, at least I'm getting new shoes :)
then after that, took some photos and had jamuan. oh, i had a little 'incident' with a cup of syrup and my face, and i guess the table also kot. that's incident no. 1.. then incident no.2 and incident no. 3 happened later on at night, before i was typing this. same incident, happened 3 times. just different type of drink. not my day huh?
then after that, a few of us marched around the tapak perhimpunan, i seriously can't believe i did that, cause seriously! I'm not a fan of marching. but i can say~ it was fun. so later, we had meeting with the new exco. nothing much to say about that. oh oh, we wrote our hopes and dream thingie again, it worked for me when i did that the last time. so yea, I'll be reading my note again in 1 year, I'm pretty sure I'll forget the content, so I'm gonna surprise myself next year. how fun is that?!
after the meeting, we marched around tapak perhimpunan again, seriously! it was fun! like i actually enjoyed it! and i learn to do a new trick too! :P need to practice more on that though. practice makes perfect!
overall, i didn't want today to be over la, it was fun for me. and other part i guess because i don't want Monday to come. and also, I'm afraid of October actually, certain 'event' is gonna take place in Oct, and it still scares me. seriously! i thought the previous one was bad, this one feels worst. lagi la, after knowing whats gonna happen there. but deep down inside, okay not that deep la, i wanna achieve it. we'll see la! wish me luck :) *wink wink*
then this year, we had HAS in the hall, so we get to sit down and actually listen to the speeches. surprisingly, i think we heard a quite well spoken speech today.. :P give us more semangat! then gave out awards, incentives, and letters kot. so wink wink on the incentive! dah plan what to spend the money on already, but seriously like use st. john money to buy stuff to wear to st. john? like it's a cycle, but i guess better than nothing la, at least I'm getting new shoes :)
then after that, took some photos and had jamuan. oh, i had a little 'incident' with a cup of syrup and my face, and i guess the table also kot. that's incident no. 1.. then incident no.2 and incident no. 3 happened later on at night, before i was typing this. same incident, happened 3 times. just different type of drink. not my day huh?
then after that, a few of us marched around the tapak perhimpunan, i seriously can't believe i did that, cause seriously! I'm not a fan of marching. but i can say~ it was fun. so later, we had meeting with the new exco. nothing much to say about that. oh oh, we wrote our hopes and dream thingie again, it worked for me when i did that the last time. so yea, I'll be reading my note again in 1 year, I'm pretty sure I'll forget the content, so I'm gonna surprise myself next year. how fun is that?!
after the meeting, we marched around tapak perhimpunan again, seriously! it was fun! like i actually enjoyed it! and i learn to do a new trick too! :P need to practice more on that though. practice makes perfect!
overall, i didn't want today to be over la, it was fun for me. and other part i guess because i don't want Monday to come. and also, I'm afraid of October actually, certain 'event' is gonna take place in Oct, and it still scares me. seriously! i thought the previous one was bad, this one feels worst. lagi la, after knowing whats gonna happen there. but deep down inside, okay not that deep la, i wanna achieve it. we'll see la! wish me luck :) *wink wink*
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
bursting anger
like damn shit la, dunno how to reply people's sms is it? dah la so many phone, dah la phone yang canggih, is it that hard to start pressing on button to reply someone's messages? seriously? not the 1st time somemore, dah la berape kali, i seriously dunno how many times i got angry over this already. i dont wanna be too specific la, if not will be damn obvious who i'm talking about. i give up, seriously, i shouldnt even sms that person la. why do i border again? OH RIGHT! suppose to be my kawan la kot? damn bitch la!
Monday, September 20, 2010
i miss me
lately, i feel like my old self is coming back, the one that likes to go out, get out of the house, which is kinda good i guess, at least i dont hide myself at home all the time, but besides the good part, the bad part is back too. the old casey that gets angry and annoyed really easily, i dunno, i really cannot take it, for a period of time, i can say i was really calm, dont get angry easily but that part is slowly fading.. it's like choosing between angry and outgoing or calm and er, the opposite of outgoing? i really wanna be calm and outgoing i guess but unfortunately, i dont feel it in me.
why not just have a program in us to and just click on the screen, choose 'calm' and 'outgoing' and click apply? well, i dont think life is gonna be that easy. and seriously, emotions are such a screw up! i think i have a very low EQ, i cant really control my emotions that well. oh and actually, i feel like the emo part is kinda slipping back in a little. the more i think about it while i'm typing this, the more i feel miserable about myself, my life.
oh, few days back i went back to my hometown. it wasnt the trip i imagined it to be. and seriously, i dont think i've ever been bitten by so many mosquitoes before, i have marks all over my leg and my hand, and it's itchy! but still, i'm glad to see certain people at my hometown.. i feel kinda happy la, dah lama tak jumpa kot. that person was really nice to me last time, jaga me a lot.
teenage dream is playing on the radio. i still feel like there are things that i wanna do, and i really wanna do it! i think i can write a whole list out, but i dont think i can motivate myself to do it, unless someone actually pushes me to do it! tada! and this where someone should come in and help me accomplish it.
feel like i'm just randomly blogging stuff.. but it's good to say it out i guess. oh, i'm having my 1st term test next monday, and seriously, i should give a damn about it, but the problem is i dont.. i'm not studying.. i'm not even afraid!? not good, where did casey go? who the hell am i now? i have no idea.
oh and actually, a while back, i guess a few weeks back la, i've been thinking about leaving this 'activity' of mine, i actually dont see the purpose for me to be there anymore, i've always feel like i have nothing that i'm good at or worthy of being there, like i dont deserve it. it's like i'm on this thin line between failure and something, i cant think of the good side. maybe there isnt one? but now like, there are 2 things that will keep me motivated to keep going on, but i have no idea when i'll run out of fuel to keep pushing me on. we'll see la, i myself dont think i'll be there for that long as well.
i guess thats enough random facts and expression for tonight, maybe will continue another night.
oh wait, another random fact! i dont like to feel like i'm the last to know stuff, and i dont like to be excluded and i dont like to be lied to. i guess thats it.. over and out..
why not just have a program in us to and just click on the screen, choose 'calm' and 'outgoing' and click apply? well, i dont think life is gonna be that easy. and seriously, emotions are such a screw up! i think i have a very low EQ, i cant really control my emotions that well. oh and actually, i feel like the emo part is kinda slipping back in a little. the more i think about it while i'm typing this, the more i feel miserable about myself, my life.
oh, few days back i went back to my hometown. it wasnt the trip i imagined it to be. and seriously, i dont think i've ever been bitten by so many mosquitoes before, i have marks all over my leg and my hand, and it's itchy! but still, i'm glad to see certain people at my hometown.. i feel kinda happy la, dah lama tak jumpa kot. that person was really nice to me last time, jaga me a lot.
teenage dream is playing on the radio. i still feel like there are things that i wanna do, and i really wanna do it! i think i can write a whole list out, but i dont think i can motivate myself to do it, unless someone actually pushes me to do it! tada! and this where someone should come in and help me accomplish it.
feel like i'm just randomly blogging stuff.. but it's good to say it out i guess. oh, i'm having my 1st term test next monday, and seriously, i should give a damn about it, but the problem is i dont.. i'm not studying.. i'm not even afraid!? not good, where did casey go? who the hell am i now? i have no idea.
oh and actually, a while back, i guess a few weeks back la, i've been thinking about leaving this 'activity' of mine, i actually dont see the purpose for me to be there anymore, i've always feel like i have nothing that i'm good at or worthy of being there, like i dont deserve it. it's like i'm on this thin line between failure and something, i cant think of the good side. maybe there isnt one? but now like, there are 2 things that will keep me motivated to keep going on, but i have no idea when i'll run out of fuel to keep pushing me on. we'll see la, i myself dont think i'll be there for that long as well.
i guess thats enough random facts and expression for tonight, maybe will continue another night.
oh wait, another random fact! i dont like to feel like i'm the last to know stuff, and i dont like to be excluded and i dont like to be lied to. i guess thats it.. over and out..
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Lifeless
well, i think i'm actually quite lifeless lately but in a way i think i'm okay with it.I've been really relaxing a lot, and my exams are coming but i haven even study! totally guilty but seriously feel so lazy, i dont even feel like doing my assignment. it's been lying there on my table since yesterday. everyone else seems to be rushing to finish it, but i macam totally moodless.. oh well.. will have to make myself finish it during the weekend.
anyway moving on, actually i can say that i haven been feeling my anger for awhile, maybe a few weeks or month, but recently i get the anger rush in me again. like all the time, i'll just get angry over stupid little things, and will totally show it on my face. like seriously, there are things that doesnt concern me but i still get angry over it. maybe the heat is getting to me?
okay and so, i have this friend of me, he is thinking of changing course. i've been trying to persuade him not to la, in a way.. i've been telling him to think properly, cause seriously if he change course he would waste half a year for nothing. and my course technically end during next years june or so. it's not that long, just about one more year! if he just study a bit harder, work a bit harder, he could get a diploma already! i just feel so wasted. and i got so annoyed talking to him just now. yea, this is where the anger rush kicks in. well, i give up on him already. seriously, can someone tell me why do i border? no one? oh well..
anyway moving on, actually i can say that i haven been feeling my anger for awhile, maybe a few weeks or month, but recently i get the anger rush in me again. like all the time, i'll just get angry over stupid little things, and will totally show it on my face. like seriously, there are things that doesnt concern me but i still get angry over it. maybe the heat is getting to me?
okay and so, i have this friend of me, he is thinking of changing course. i've been trying to persuade him not to la, in a way.. i've been telling him to think properly, cause seriously if he change course he would waste half a year for nothing. and my course technically end during next years june or so. it's not that long, just about one more year! if he just study a bit harder, work a bit harder, he could get a diploma already! i just feel so wasted. and i got so annoyed talking to him just now. yea, this is where the anger rush kicks in. well, i give up on him already. seriously, can someone tell me why do i border? no one? oh well..
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