The Rescue

i've been blogging so much recently, it's just that theres so many decisions to make, so many life's challenges to face. so tired, seriously so tired. don't everyone wish they had a guardian angel to guide then along the way, making the right choices in life.

sometimes i just hope to have someone to depend on, i've lost that at a very young age. having to depend on yourself i just so tiring sometimes. or i should just ask for a mr. right to depend on.

Choosing Paths

i guess everyone will eventually have to choose their own path in life after they graduate from high school, where you wanna study? what course you wanna take? and such. i wouldn't say that my path in life was a hard one, i guess it was right there in front of my all along, and i just started walking but honestly, i dunno if this is the path i wanna walk for the rest of my life. okay before i start going deeper into my future, what i wanna blog about today is more focus on the present.

a classmate of mine told me about certain issues, and it kinda made me hesitate about my initial choice in life. somewhere along the way in taking lcci, i decided that i would study part-time and work at the same time to support myself, and well gain experience and all. this friend of mine told me that from what she heard from our seniors it's hard to work and study at the same time and all, it's really tiring. it made me realise that yea, it would be really tired that after working i still need to go to classes. she said better to focus on studying first, but the problem is.. i dont have that kind of funding to go study without working, so i'm currently stuck deciding, i got 2 more months till i graduate and all.

yesterday night, when talking to pui yee, it also got me thinking can i actually work and study? it's a tough decision to make. i dont wanna end up not getting anything at all.. not finishing acca and such.

Unsatisfied

if you see this from a third person's point of view, it's considered very well done. but in my point of view, i'm not satisfied with what i got (i'm not even that sure what marks i got) i know part of my marks, and it's suppose to be really high, but i'm not happy with it. i made really stupid mistakes and i'm not proud of it. honestly, i didnt set a bar for myself in this exam, but i just feel like i didnt do as good as i hoped for, or maybe i did and i'm just not happy that someone got the same marks that i did. to me, it's not enough. i know i'm asking for perfection, but isnt that what everyone wants? PERFECTION.