Invisible Truth

the reason i came up with the name 'Invisible Truth' for my blog is because i wanted to express emotions, facts, truths that cannot be seen from the surface and i don't think I've been using this blog to it's fullest potential. theres been certain topic that i wanted to express here but i just couldn't make myself do it, i would say i don't have the guts to do it yet. i thought of making this blog a place to 'express' but when i think of it, people can just access this blog in a snap of a finger. and I'm afraid certain people would see it, and just not accept it? I've been struggling to tell my parents the truth recently actually, i think I'm old enough to do it. but every time, when i think of what happens if i do, the consequences to my actions. i reconsider my 'plan'. well, the truth? i don't freaking care if my friends don't accept the fact or what ever, i came across this line 'those that matter don't mind, those that mind don't matter' and i really feel it. cause seriously, if they really are your true friends, they would accept you for who you are. and those that doesn't, well, they're not worthy of being your friend then. *insert story about past personal experience here* but family is different, you cant just ditch them, you have to spend your whole life with them! and they are the ones that i feel i'm letting down the most, i feel like everyone have hopes in me. and that hope is gonna shatter like glass if they found out the truth. i'm actually really tired of hiding who i am, i wanna just step out into the real world. the world i belong in, the world that i can just be myself, no more hiding. and i know whats the first thing i'm gonna do after i've expose the truth! i think i'm so gonna post it on facebook! i know everyone hope to have this platform to fall back on, when theres a wall infront of you, you hope to have your friends and family to help you climb across it. but now, that wall is my family. i'm like stuck here hanging, not passing on, not falling back. i admit that i need help, someone with i dunno, experience to be here. but seriously, i wouldnt find any. okay, right, too dramatic, i know i know, coming back.. i think if my told my parents, knowing how much they love me, they would eventually accept the fact, if i'm not wrong. but i dont live with my parents, it's a whole other story regarding my family. this is so freaking hard! and i'm seriously tired of hiding! like seriously.. i wanna climb across that wall! and find the real casey, the real me.