Just A Dream

I was thinking about you, thinking about me.
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

I'm like addicted to this song, but i prefer the Sam Tsui and Christina Grimmie's version. :) i was sitting in class today, listening to songs while teacher was teaching (i know it's wrong but it doesnt affect me paying attention in class). okay, i shouldn't say songs, cause i was practically listening to this same song over and over and over again for about an hour or so.. hahaha!

*intro* welcome! thanks for tuning in! we have Casey blogging live @ blogger.com.. *LOL*

so yea, here i am again after dunno how long was the last post, I'm a little bored and lifeless nowadays.. soon that will end~ sigh! i like being bored and lifeless, it's like can relax at home, just sit in front of the computer and do practically nothing. HAHA! what a way to enjoy life huh?

so lately, i guess i could say I've hit another road block, trainers results is out, i didn't get what i expected to get. seriously? like seriously? it's like i thought i was better than that, but nooo~ kenneth messaged me on Monday night after I've already on my bed, about to doze off, then when i saw the message, i jump back up, phone ran out of credit so couldn't reply him, i instantly turn on my com and went online, he was online, so we have a little chat on how impossible this feels and yea, should have studied more. sigh, i should have been like teri la, went home to study.. *wink wink to teri* anyway, i was seriously shock.. it's like a huge big time slap on my face. so on Tuesday, well, i would say I'm on this really really rough ride to dunno where, so my morning was practically deadly, i tried to control la, but there were time that i almost snapped at people in class. then after that, i slept the whole afternoon, like just really wanna sleep past it, and i did. btw, the weather was awesome to sleep to, it was raining. so in the end, i slept like 4 hours or so, woke up in the evening, still feeling like crap, i cant remember who i talked to at night that made me cheer up a bit.. and i watched some happy reality shows that i laughed like mad. and yea, i think I'm over it.. i think i kept on repeating seriously seriously seriously with kenneth and teri.. hahaha! to me la, i feel that I've never failed so terribly before, like things that i really wanted to pass, i would.. some things i just don't really care about failing so yea..

what next to story? i feel like having a super power to move things with my brain.. "telekinetic" hahaha! I'm just tooo lazy to move to get the pillow on my bed at the other side of the room. it's never wrong for a man to dream~ this reminds me of a song. Dream Big by david cook

Cause if you don't dream big what's the use of dreaming,
If you don't have faith there's nothing worth believing,
It takes one look to make the stars worth reaching for,
So reach out for something more.

 

okay, i shall just keep talking.. i think i need a long holiday and vacation cause seriously, when i go to class every morning the only thing that i think about is going home. i need a fresh start. I've thought about this though, someday i wanna go to a new country to restart my life and just leave everything behind, someday i will. there's just a lot to think here, it'd be a good chance to be living life they way i wanna live, no one knows me, be who i wanna be. i cant do that here, there's a lot to worry about. *gets up and go get the pillow* I've had a post about being who i wanna be, not being afraid to live my life. but recently, i keep getting messages about who my family want me to be. and i don't wanna disappoint them, i would choose to escape to another country and start over. this brings me to studying hard.. get an awesome job in another country or something. hahaha! 

oh just a random question, have you even thought about what will happen with you and your friends in a few years time? everyone going their separate ways eventually, never seeing each other again. times like this is just being a simple part of our memories? i know i have. seriously, i have. until now, i have no idea what 'life' have installed for me, but eventually 'life' will unfold itself bit by bit.

casey signing off. stay tuned for the next post.

 

Last Minute of 11th November 2010

i haven been blogging in awhile, i just didn't feel like it. anyway, here i am using the time right before I'm off to bed to just give a brief update about my life.

1. I've been falling asleep in class frequently lately
2. my aunt is back from UK, bought me books :)
3. have a serious backache when I'm typing this
4. I really wanna watch HARRY POTTER!

okay, generally that's what i can think off at this very moment. but that's obviously not all.
so today at extra class, this guy sitting near me, he rarely comes for extra class but then he came today. normally extra class is from 1pm till 5pm, and so was today, he wasn't freaking listening most of the time, god know whats he playing on his phone, then he was complaining about the principal talking too long, and wanna go home and such. seriously, i do appreciate the principal spending his time to teach us. although he does talk alot and makes us suffer at time. random fact : got backache now cause been stuck to the chair for hours. but what ever he teach really helps. and i really paling tak puas is that he doesn't give a damn, but when exam comes he's the fricking 1st one to panic. like seriously panic! i was like.. you are the one that doesn't pay attention and don't give a damn about class, always skipping Friday classes. you know your own condition so make a damn effort to come to class, and yet you still panic during the exam? you brought that onto yourself. so yea, i sat there most of the time trying to keep cool before i go all SERIOUSLY? YOU'RE NOT LISTENING? on him. oh, and today i feel so proud of myself.. the principal was asking us to answer one question, and he was saying like no one can answer it correctly and all. then i just so happen to mumble out the answer when everyone was answering at the same time, and well, i didn't he would have heard but he did. and he pointed at me while saying the answer out loud. i was like.. wooohoo! score 1 for casey!

and so, lately i just feel tired of going to class, i really feel like having a vacation or something away from this busy life. okay fine, i don't exactly have a busy life, but i do feel like a need to change the environment for a bit. and seriously, i need holidays without assignments! i can foresee my Xmas holiday to be gone, and my CNY holiday to be gone too. that's just plain depressing! hmm, what else? recently, theres not much 'happening' stuff going on for me. feel quite free.. oh, this strikes me, i have an upcoming dinner on Saturday night. oh, it's gonna be awkward! believe me~ i hope it goes well. seriously, what else? my life sounds so dull! random fact : casey learned some cool tricks on Microsoft excel. (highly doubt it will come in handy anytime soon)

lets go on the whole future path topic, and so we've gotten our exam application forms today to apply for which exams we wanna sit for next year. I'm considering on the subjects that i would wanna take and back up plans. oh oh, and i would wanna go for the opportunity to get well, 3 diploma's? i would say it more or less revolves around the same thing, accounting.. but still, it's obviously better to have 3 diploma's then 1 right? i know i can do this! I've been telling myself that a lot recently.

actually, i feel like i need to talk to somebody. like just talk, like decent conversations. obviously, i do talk to people, i don't live under a rock. but I'm saying that, i need someone to listen to me talk. like just let me blab everything out. the feeling of people don't give a damn of what I'm saying is there every time i talk to someone. i have friends that i know i can talk to, but they obviously are very busy with their own lifes. and if you've been following me on my previous posts, you know that parents aren't exactly an option for me. my expression method are getting limited. i dont mind getting an online buddy or something.. penpal? uhhh, whatever..

I'm 1 minutes away from 12th November 2010, i cant believe time is passing by so fast. it's almost a year that I'm out of high school, I've been 18 for hmm... 3 and a half months? got my driving license for around 4 months? it all seems like yesterday that I'm still in school, sitting for spm, going through all the days being all depress and pathetic. but I'm over it now (at least i think so)

i think this is why i have a blog, to be able to type all this right out.. it's a relieve to my brain, also increases my mental health. at least i know, my brain would continue to function for awhile :P and goodnight to the world.