WHAT THE FUCK?!

like fucking seriously?! okay fine, you wanna borrow my notes? okay fine, take it. but you take my whole fucking stack of notes which i filed up and you photostat it!? like from the cover page that I MADE! till the last fucking irrelevant page? are you kidding me? now the whole class knows i file my stuff, and they wanna borrow it. and you know what they do with it? THEY PHOTOSTAT IT AGAIN!! okay, we kinda have different books, so i file my notes and exercises up according to the book, you took 2 of it the last time. AND NOW, YOU WANT ANOTHER FUCKING 3 OF THEM?! are you fucking me? like seriously bitch.. you just text me and expect me to hand them over just like that?! dream on~! it's not that i'm selfish and dont wanna help you. work for it! dont expect me to just spoon feed you again! you start skipping class, you like you come, you dont like you dont come and end of the day you fucking photostat my notes? NO WAY BITCH! at least you copy it i wont be so pissed! you ask me how to do it or something.. i'll be more than glad to teach you.. once is fine, but now the second time?! whatever you're asking for is like HALF A YEAR's WORK!? MY HARDWORK BITCH!

i'm taking LCCI and for the exams they give prizes to those that do really well. like for each subject there are prizes for the country and the world. and one of my seniors took WORLD GOLD for 2 subject and WORLD SILVER for one.. she literally dominated 3 prizes out of 10, i guess. Around the whole world, theres like 500,000 candidates taking the exam. so it became a hit topic around college. and today~ you know what the fuck happened? my principal and teacher came to my class, and the teacher was pointing me out to the principal. i'm sure they're talking about "potential students". you much be thinking, don't be so er.. perasan? casey, it might not be you, it might be the person behind you. oh believe me, i thought about that too.. i looked back.. but no~ that teacher opened the door, fucking shout my name out loud and ask me to raise my hand.. so do you think it's just me? oh, you think they would be talking about something else huh? i thought so too until they opened the door and i could hear what they talking about.. (the teachers office if right outside my room). do you know how pressuring it is when people expect you to the best of the best and have this aim for you while you dont even think you can do it. okay maybe a little.. not world maybe country.. but still! i sat there thinking what should i do to make it happen. like what? er, stop st. john and focus on my studies? stop going out so much? like study! study! study! i'm still considering it.. honestly.. if i want to be THE BEST of the best, i really need to set my priorities straight. i'm not talking about getting straight A's in spm, pmr.. it's not like that.. it's like aiming to get THE TOP FUCKING STUDENT IN MALAYSIA! but in this case, the aim is to be ONE OF THE TOP STUDENTS IN THE WORLD! it's like competiting against Hong Kong, UK er.. Singapore i guess.. cant think of much.. if you wanna know, google LCCI. honestly, do you think it's easy? you need to have a perfect score, i mean 100 out of 100 to be WORLD GOLD, and around 99 to be WORLD SILVER. oh, and that was my story of 'expectation part 1' and now here is 'expectation part 2'. i was having extra class today, and we were in 2 classes conducted together. and my principal was still talking about this topic, he said he have expectations for 2 students, one is the other room one is my room, both guys. and do you know how many guys were there in my room? er.. i would say, less than 10, and honestly, i have a feeling it's me.

i know what i've blog in this post like really outrageous, like stop being a self centered bitch casey.. i don't really care what you think, okay? i'm fucking pissed now, it's my blog, i can fucking write whatever i want on it. read it if you want to, dont read it if you dont want to. read my typing.. I-DONT-FUCKING-CARE!