What Do I Even Care

honestly, i'm so tired of all this sudden "bad news", you can call it bad news i guess. sigh.
so much been happening these few days, i was kinda looking forward to this weekend like you know, got something interesting to do, but no~ it cancelled on me and now i'm so have nothing to do for the weekend. and i'm suppose to have class, but i just feel so mood-less to give a fucking damn about it. some friends asked me to go out as well on saturday, i just no longer feel like it. i just wanna stay home this weekend or maybe forever.

i feel like blasting everything out at someone? some thing? but i guess i'm doing it here. so here goes..
i have no idea why someone would wanna change course after 1 whole freaking year of studying the current course they taking, if the course is like 3 years then you change i still can understand but NO~~ the course is only one year plus, so means theres only a few more months to go till you actually sit for the external UK exam and get your diploma. if you pass your accounting and 2 other subject, then you will get a diploma in accounting but if you dont actually pass your accounting since okay fine, we know you're not good at it, you can still take another subject pass it and get a diploma in business studies. i was like.. what the fuck are you thinking in your messed up twisted mind, manipulated by your parents. the external paper is in june, and your intake for your new college is in may. just one month difference wei, yeah! you heard me right, just one fucking month! did i mention that this friend of mine paid about RM700 for the external exam? and you know what he said when i asked him about it, he just say 'i guess it's my loss then' i was like.. are you fucking kidding me? like seriously are you fucking me?! it's my loss then? thats the best you can come up with? and now, you wanna take the internal finals but you dont wanna come for class until then. he stopped coming to class already since he decided to 'change course'. do you think the finals is like a piece of cake? you barely made it thought mid terms and such, and now you dont wanna come to class. i tried to talk to you, you dont wanna listen, fine! dont coming to me saying i'm scared of the exam and all.

i feel really mood-less now.. and i feel like really just hiding at home. i think i would start to cut down on my "extracurricular activity" and focus on my studies. and i think it's a pattern for me, to just stay home and not go out. it's a phase that keeps repeating and repeating itself. so dear friends, understand if i reject going out. thats all i can say for now.