Lunch

today i went out for lunch with my dad, he made me drove his MANUAL car, i dont think it was that bad. anyway, we talked about stuff la, then he started saying that friends now wouldnt last forever and everything. what he said kinda hit me, i've actually thought about it in the past, someday we will all go our separete ways and might never be the friends we used to be or the friends we are now. example, in primary we used to be really really close friends, and we hang out all the time, and we do a lot of stuff together, but now we all went our separete ways and we've never really contacted each other ever since. it's scary to think that, someday we all might just stop talking to each other and move on with our life like nothing happened. we always make new friends, and sometimes new friends will replace our old friends and grew further and futher from each other. oh well, i guess if it's bound to happen it will happen someday in the future. i guess we should really just enjoy the present moments in life.

Happy Day

hmmm, so today was a totally tiring day. i woke up at 6am++ to get ready to go to jogathon at smk sri permata and so man kit picked me up at 7am, thanks man kit! i know you're gonna be reading this somehow~ reach sri permata and the usual la, wait for jogathon to start and duty and stuff like that, lazy to talk about that so moving on, duty was 'interesting' seeing there are 'interesting' peoples! that is like totally and super duper 'interesting'.. then after jogathon, we walked around school to see what kind of food are there. i didnt really spend money and buy food like i expect i would. so after awhile, we left to go watch movie at Tropicana City Mall.

so we went to get movie tickets for Inception, after that we went for lunch at Nando's which i guess all of us ordered the usual stuff, after that we went to Borders, man kit wanted to buy a blue pen but end up, jeng jeng jeng! they bought me a book for my birthday! thanks teri, man kit and haris for the book! i'm gonna think of you guys when i read it and in the future when i look back at the book, i'll be like awww... hahah! anyway, after that we walked around Tropicana City Mall, went to Starbucks, and after that continue walking and noticed that time is almost ticking out, so we walked to the cinema to watch the movie that we looked forward to watching for some time, INCEPTION. the movie was awesome! it's like so cool, you feel like you're in the dreams along with them and it's just so freaking exciting! after the movie, i was like oh awww... back to reality. after the movie, we went to Toys 'R' Us, and we just walked around and look at toys and all, until we started laughing like mad in the shop due to certain thoughts. hahaha! we bought the bubble soap thingie, that we used to play when we're young, after that we went to sasa's house to BLOW bubbles, and after that we went home and here i am blogging about it. :)

Headach

omg, my head is killing me after today's extra class, but i feel so totally proud of myself, i finished 4 account question in 1 and a half hours, thats actually quite fast. XD
anyway, i'm gonna update a little on my life, so today is thursday and i'm having a minor headach and i havent been getting enough sleep lately (keep falling asleep in class). then yesterday i went to bank with haris and teri to bank in some money, it was quite fun :P then went to mcD, sasa and dana came to join us too but unfortunately dana had to leave, so after that we left and send sasa home, then we talked in the car, the conversations were er.. lets just use the word 'overated' then we get to have a go at someone's yellow manual car.. hahaha!

class is getting slightly boring at times, but well at least i've lived through thursday's long extra class, extra class wasnt that bad la, it was quite funny. oh, and well, i didnt really do much on my birthday, but it was quite okay la, at least i had some friends over and we ate pizza and cake. it could have been more exciting.. and i've found myself as someone would say 'fallen to the dark side' as i've kinda got addicted to one of facebook's game, i'm not the type that play fb games alot but i've started on one, and it's actually quite interesting and fun.

i guess that more or less it, i kinda look forward to saturday, it should be fun i guess and will get to eat a lot of food :)

Decision

well, i think i've decided to stay home this saturday and just pass a lonely and silent 18th birthday.. i'm pretty sure i'll remember this for the rest of my life.. hahaha..

Plans for Birthday?

well, it's like almost a week away from my 18th birthday, 18th birthday is suppose to be special and meaningful and stuff like that, i won't elaborate on that. anyway, few months ago, i'm so excited that i'm turning 18 this year, thinking about stuff that i wanna get for myself and do but now i'm hardly excited at all. previous years, i would have planed what i wanna do on my birthday or so, but this year i totally have no idea what i want to do at all, seeing my birthday is on the same day as mtv world stage, everyone is going to mtv world stage. i know what you're thinking, you're thinking like then just go and spend your birthday there or something but thats not what i wanna do, it's not really my thing. so till now, i have no idea what to do on my birthday. maybe i should just tell myself that it's just a stupid 18th birthday that only happens once in a life time, it's no big. oh well.. life goes on anyways.

Living in my own world

okay, today went to sri permata for the one day camp, it's actually like quite fun. i enjoyed myself but it is like so tiring, my legs were killing me when i got home. you can imagine this coming from me, i'm just there to support, the committee themselves would be more tiring, but it's a good experience for everyone. hope they will like keep up with their good work and all, and i totally learned so many new ways to protect a raw egg from breaking.

moving on, after the whole one day camp, i went home half dead and went online, then later on went out to "yam cha" with friends, as we're talking, at certain moments of the conversations, i kinda feel totally like left out, because it's like there's so much that i dont know about, they'll be talking and talking and everyone understands and i'll be like lost, i dunno anything at all, i'm also lazy to say anything about it. There's like all these stories that everyone knows and i dont know, it actually kinda stings. oh well, thats life i guess. i shouldnt give a damn about it, but unfortunately, i do. or maybe they dont give a damn about me, i dunno.. i should get over it and just live in my own world or something.

and i think i'm not much of a nice person la, i'm kinda annoyed with certain stuff, actions and persons. it's like memang hard to tahan la, but i at least i didnt snap at that person or anything. my temper is more controlled now than last time, last time if anything tak puas i think i would have just snapped and walk off, but now, i'm more like controlled, i still snap and walk off at times, but at least i come back and sometimes i just lazy to snap and scold someone..

okay, i'm pretty tired, it's been a long day so i'm going to bed now..

17th year, 11th month and 22th day of my life

okay, today wasnt one of the best days of my life, i totally forgot about tuition, until i was called by my ex-tuition teacher, which she now is my boss. anyway, i went there, it's more like i rushed there but thats not important, so i reached and to find out that my student didn't do his own work, he said he asked his friend to help him but i can totally tell by the perfectly well done accounts, and even though his freaking net profit in the profit and loss account was wrong but he still totally got perfectly correct balance sheet that is suppose to be unbalance, but magically his net profit amount in the balance sheet is correct!! that is so fake! in simple english, HE CHEATED!! i almost snapped at him, but 'unfortunately' i didnt, what a shame. i just whacked him really really hard with the reference book. it's like come on la, i wanna do this quick, i have no time already, spm is in what? er.. 3 or 4 months or so, and i haven freaking started with form 5 syllabus! and he doesnt seem to work hard and do the readings that he is suppose to. okay, i should move on..

okay so, my mom's birthday is in about 3 weeks, and i dunno what to do for her. this year is suppose to be one of her important years, a mid point in life. so i wanna make it special, but i dunno how. it's like she supported me all this years with my life and all. i wanna do something good for her.

and personally, i miss going to this house which is a place that i always enjoy hanging out at, the house is kinda big, and comfortable but it isnt about the house la, it's more about the people living in the house, and the people i always hang out with at that house, it's this place where i can just drop all my frustrations and burdens in life and just enjoy the moment for that few hours. to me, it's this bubble that everyone dreams about, this safety/escape bubble that you dont need to think about anything in life and just be calm. but ever since all of us have gone to college and certain event that happened, we rarely see each other and hang out the way we used to. i miss all that memories, although there are unhappy and regretful decisions and events that occured in that house, but it's the good memories totally beat the bad ones. i wish to be able to go there someday soon.

Conversation!

okay, i dunno why but i always get inspired on what to blog about when i'm talking my bath, i think i'm able to think properly and calmly when i'm in the showers.

anyway, lets come back to the topic.. HAHAHA! lately, i feel like i'm not having much conversation with people, i barely talk about stuff in class. The whole routine is like, go to class, sit down, sleep/read a book, teacher comes in, start class, do exercises, then the next teacher comes in, break time, read a book/go for food, continue class, then go home.. after reach home i will siting in front of the computer the whole day if i dont need to go out. then on msn, it's like the usual how are you doing, hows your day, what you doing type of questions.. i feel like i need to talk more, that sounds like i'm such a bitch but yea. communication is a basic human thing, and i dont feel like i'm really communicating much, this feels so freaking pathetic! but it's true, even when having conversations with people, i feel like i'm the one always talking, it makes me feel like that person don't wanna listen and i should just shut up. i'm so tired of this whole lifeless moments.. i need a life!