Secrets

i believe everyone have their very own secrets. no matter big or small, everyone have certain things that they are not sharing with the world. why not just tell the world? i would, but is the world ready for it? are we ready to face the world? ask yourself this, what is the consequences if i told the world about my secret?

i have my very own secrets, i can assure you of that. some people knows, some people don't. it used to be really hard living behind a shadow, but once you take one step into the light, you would wanna take the last remaining step and just complete the walk, but it's not that easy. recently, one of my friends asked me, why not tell my family that i'm gay? (it took me awhile to type that word here) anyway, yea. why not? it would totally save me all the fake smiling and nodding huh. the truth is, i'm just not ready to face all the drama that could happen, i don't want anyone getting a heart attack. but i really want to, i just couldn't take the last step.. some of my beloved friends already know, and i don't act around them anymore, i just be who i wanna be, say things i wanna say. i don't need to find a reason to cover up my tracks. like go through the whole awkward silence, then come up with something really really stupid to cover up. haha! okay, i don't think i actually do that. okay, get over it, i know you'll be thinking 'are you sure~?'

i thought of moving this blog, actually i did, and moved it back. cause i have no idea who have access to this blog, and people that shouldn't see, might see this. but in the end, i just thought i would be making a really big deal out of this, if i actually moved my blog. so i'm just gonna let it slip. i wouldn't want people coming to me and shout 'OMG! like you're gay? get away from me!' the truth is, i don't give a damn but i wouldn't want that happening.. but if that happens, i think blogging about it. so stay tuned~ anyways, sometimes i just need a company, not so lonely and depressing.

okay, here goes nothing.. *clicks the publish post button*