Communication

communication is a basic need to living our life. you cant live your life alone, without communicating with other people. okay, unless you got stuck in some deserted island then i got nothing to say la. but other than that, don't tell me you don't even talk to a single soul in a day. that's why communication is really important, and one must also know how to communicate with other people as well. when 2 or more person stops to communicate, it causes a lot of problems, believe me... i know.

this whole week, i've learned a lot and realised a lot of stuff, and also reflected on a lot of my past actions and things that i've done wrong. it's not wrong, to be wrong. but it's wrong, when you know you're wrong and you don't wanna be right. haha! let me translate, it's okay to make mistakes. but when we make mistake, the important thing is to learn from it and correct our mistakes. i have no freaking idea how many freaking times i've said this, but i just need to emphasize again, we ourselves will never know when we're hurting someone unintentionally, it's up to people around you to tell you that you're wrong. and learn from it and try to make it right. i admit that i've done lots of things that i'm not proud of, but i believe from this lesson, i can change to be a better person. i'll seriously try, but habits doesn't just change in one night, it takes a long time to re-adjust our actions. and obviously, we'll slip out of it once in a while, tend to just forget about it. it's up to your friends to remind you about it. and so, i'm asking my dear friends to remind me of what is right and what is wrong when i happen to slip out of it. thank you.

and please la, don't be a punching bag, if you're not happy with it, just say it la. solve it on the spot, when you tend to drag it, the misunderstanding is getting bigger and bigger. and one day, you'll just burst. (quote someone : like a balloon) i know what it feels like, seriously i do. to have people you care for, treating you like crap. i've been through that, and might be still going through that sometimes, but once you talk it through it'll be fine. the thought of evaporating from this planet is there, sometimes i just wish i could like get in a rocket and blast myself to mars or something.

this few days, i had little 'talks' with people. you know, just to sort things out. after that, i feel really relieved, like all the burden been release from my shoulder. it's a really nice things, when you come to an understanding with someone. it's like, you just un-tie the balloon and let all the air out rather than taking a needle to burst it. and it's important to know that there are friends that you can trust and believe, and know that they are there for you all the time. i always had issue with friends, i hate being left out, i hate being ignored. you're right la, i tend to terasa a lot of things, but that because i care. you know what the ironic part of this statement is? i always end up falling in love with people that ends up ignoring me. and i go through the whole, my life is crappy and i feel like crap period. that why i just really hate being ignored.

i think it's really time to sort everything out la, be honest, i already did that with certain peoples. just blab everything you wanna say, but say it in a nice and understanding way la. oh btw, and i've also learned a lot from certain people la, they really gave me a wake up call, like a few slaps on the face or something. i really did realise a lot of things, and been doing a lot of thinking and talking, to sort out what right and wrong between us. and before i finish, i would like to say, if you have anything to say about me, things that i can improve, things that i've done wrong and pissed you off in the past, anything at all. please come talk to me about it. rare opportunity! this is like an open invitation to my funeral, asking people to come tell me whats wrong with me, really casey? really? but i guess i would wanna do this. so yea, please do so. oh, and i just wanna say i'm sorry if i've offended anyone in the past, some things i really dont mean it.

random fact : casey doesn't like awkward moments, he doesn't like being all weird with someone, like silent.

and so, i think that's it for tonight, i spend like quite some time typing this, which i think i should have used this time to study for my exam tomorrow. hah! if you're thinking, what is wrong with you, you should be studying rather than blogging? then i would say, i did study like for the past few hours. i just have some memorising to do.

yours truly,
Casey :)