i kinda wonder does anyone still reads this blog? oh well. so here i am, blogging after so long. today, my one year studying for lcci came to an end. okay fine, technically it was yesterday cause now already 1am, moving on.. i would wanna feel like the weight is lifted of my shoulder, i wanna feel like i can relax, actually feel happy and excited that exams are over, but i just felt like another day, instead i have more work to catch up than before, theres no 'excuse' for me to push work to later on, i need to rush to finish everything soon as i'll be leaving to uk. i avoided the computer for the night until now, i just dont wanna be sitting in front of the computer sorting out stuff, i want to not worry. for crying out loud, my exams finished, i'm graduating already, i wanna just throw everything away and enjoy the moment. maybe get a pat on the back telling me 'casey, you've done a good job', instead i need to deal with life.
honestly, i'm so scared to move on. i'm scared to get out of the country, i'm scared about what gonna happen next? whats the next step in my life? work? study? can i cope? questions, questions, questions.. i got 8 more days to do what i wanna do, i honestly dont think thats enough time. bottom line, what i can do now is i hope i have the time of my life in uk, just completely leave behind this life here in malaysia.
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